I Always Feel Like Somebody's Watching Me

How many of us like to run? I do. Apart from toning yourself and making your fitter and faster running has its perks. Like for instance, how many of us think while we're running? Those 10 - 20 minutes where you are locked in a cycle of menial activity just let your mind relax while other tough stuff get solved - like the theory behind female thinking. Anyways...I like running because it reminds me a lot of the semester. One moment, you're in the zone, seemingly unharmed. The momentum kicks in and you check the monitors and all is well. Then, in the matter of 5 steps, you get a stitch (hahaha!!) or you just get tired; and you wonder, "What happened to my energy?" Most people call that "The Wall" - when you start burning the good stuff, the fat. We have two choices when this happens: we can either keep running and finish, or we can call it a day.

Hebrews 12:1 says, "Therefore, since we are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders us and the sin that so easily entangles and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." Many people agree that the "witnesses" refers to the names mentioned in the previous chapter. Let's look at a cloud...did you come back? Ok. When I hiked the Blue Mountain last summer, we walked through a couple of clouds. To be honest, I only realised I was in a cloud when I looked down and saw clouds below and none above us. When you are in a cloud you don't know. Same way it go so...lol. How many of us know that people are watching us?

I'm the only one who thinks I'm invisible. If I'm invisible then no one can see when I do wrong. If I'm invisible, then I don't have to do anything because no one will miss me. If I'm invisible, then I can do whatever I please because no one will notice and it wouldn't matter anyway. Yes, I'd love to make myself believe I'm invisible. But we're not invisible; not to ourselves, not to God and not even to others. On Wednesday I went to Financial Management. I always go there with "Last Class Syndrome". After 3 hours of maths and 2 of law, at 5pm my mind just goes "let's get it over with". While the corrections were being done I decided to talk to one of my classmates. I said, "Hey, we missed you last week."

She smiled and said, "I'm so flattered." We continue talking then she asked me what I study. I told her Maths and Accounting and after she gave me that look she said "You know I always thought you were a Law student." (I thought it was because I looked snobbish but she just thought so).

I came home and thought about it. Law students don't do FM. So it would mean then that she saw me before this semester. If she saw me, who's to say that every student at UWI doesn't have me profiled already? I had a talk with my mother (other) about this. Being a christian isn't so much about not making mistakes but does your life match up with what you preach? Obviously what you preach must also line up with the Bible. And that's what people respect. If I say that red shirts are bad, yet wear them all the time who will listen to me if I present the concept of evil?

That conversation made me note the importance of integrity. Going back to what I said about the cloud, I'll never know who's watching me unless they say so. So when I go to speak to people about Christ, I don't know the idea they have about me. Yes, people can read the wrong thing, but for the most part they interpret what you presented fairly correctly (especially if they talk to you).So what's my story? Now what does the pen write? I'm beginning to realise that most people don't read the book because of the author.

"Suggestions, questions
People want to know
Is there life after talk
Cause there's talk on the road." - TobyMac